January 11, 2012

Thrown Away


As if it's been thrown away
Hopes and dreams
My soul
feels crumbled up and discarded
By the same one who promised to treat me gently if I let him in
And he did
for so long
Then the moment came when I was without barrier
And said those sweet words
of love and forever
That's when he decided
I might not be enough
Admitting I may never be
Causing my worst fear to come forward
And there is nothing I can do
Nothing I can say
To change my value in his eyes
He wants me to believe the words he shared were real
Only days before deciding I may never make him happy
He spoke words of love, longing and lifetime
Suddenly without warning he stole them all back
And my heart is breaking
My heart is lying on the floor in a pool of tears
I keep asking the same questions only to have them unanswered
I am screaming out
"HOW DID WE GO FROM THAT MAGICAL PLACE....THAT PLACE OF BLISS AND FOREVER to here"?
Overnight
and "WHY, OH GOD, EXPLAIN WHY DID HE HAVE TO TAKE ME DOWN THAT ROAD WHERE I FINALLY TRUSTED WITHOUT QUESTION only to break my heart into little pieces"?
Fighting the reaffirmation that I can't believe in men
That nothing lasts forever
And that I will never be enough......

1 comment:

Betty Kurecka said...

What a shame that such horrible pain creates such beautiful poetry. Maybe misplaced love is a gift after all.