Crabby

I have this theory. I am currently experiencing the reality of it so it is not just a theory in my world.

When you catch crabs from the ocean you can put them inside a cooler or a bucket but you don't have to put a lid on them. If one of them try to crawl out the others will pull them back down.

How often we do that to one another as human beings. I am continually surprised by folks in the counseling field who deal have the most moving groups, workshops and sessions. They often tell their clients to move forward, believe in themselves and keep dreaming of future goals. Some of them are the same counselors who want their peers and colleagues to stay stuck and not advance.

My dear friend Jennifer just told me that I might experience some of that as I move forward. Two days later....I am the crab trying to climb from the bucket and I can feel those pincher's at my heels.

Really crabby today.

Mid-Week

Today is the middle of the week and the middle of the month and the middle of my life. Dramatic? So am I.

I attended my first HIV Outreach workers conference in Austin this week. It was great. I am not sure what I expected but I really enjoyed it. It was a Mardi Gras theme. Tomorrow I go to the TAAP state conference in San Antonio. The TAAP conference is a "state fair" theme. That should be interesting.

I love conferences. I love training. I love learning. I love growing. But I don't know that I want to do all of them at once.

In transition.

I am, because I am.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions!

I hate them sometimes. I wish someone would make them for me. I realized today how fear drives my inability to make some of them. It is funny how I can make decisions everyday and sometimes I let the small ones bog me down. Whew. I am crazy.

Nuts.

Cancer Update

My mom got a great report. There is much shrinkage of the tumors. They are going to keep watch over it, though. Apparently this kind of cancer comes back. Right now she is finished with chemo and radiation.

During our visit this weekend she got out all of her hats, scarves and wigs. My great neice is in this photo when she tried one on. She looks like a gypsy, don't you think?

Thank God for big miracles.

Real Sign

This is really a sign near where I live. There is a Hooter's that just bought and started remodeling next door to their current restaurant. Seriously funny.

My Boy

He picked his own haircut. It is spiked. He even had her put blue hair gel in it. Oh, he reminds me of someone I know very well! We are in trouble.

80's Punk Rocker.

Trust

I was chatting with a friend yesterday. She said that she couldn't stay in a work situation because she didn't trust the people she worked with. I wonder if you have to trust someone to learn from them? I think you don't.

Long Time, No Blog!

It is summertime in Texas. The sun is shining and swimming is in progress.

I am in a new job so I am without vacation this summer. My boy and his dad are going on vacation Saturday. They are taking a manly trip to Colorado. They are even talking about tents. I am jealous that a trip is happening but not so jealous about the camping idea.

I am so busy I need a break. I love my new job but want to take a day this weekend to do some writing. A week without writing is like a month without chocolate. Quote me.


Ta Ta!

Summer

Well, the finals are over. No more basketball in my life until about October. I am glad the Spurs went as far as they did...and the hate is leaving my heart. But I still wish the worst for the Lakers. I don't have a desire to change that feeling.

Summer is here and my boy is in camp. He goes by the name of "Ice Dude" in camp. I love it. I am so glad he likes it. Okay, everyone else was right. When he got home yesterday he jumped up and hugged me. He said, "Thank you, thank you, thank you for letting me go to camp!". I will take that as a good thing.

Summer sun to all.

Western Conference Finals!

Good afternoon!

Wow. We won. We really won. I am so excited. NOW it feels like the playoffs. In my humble opinion, the veterans came through last night because they know what the playoff experience is like (fans included). New Orleans is a great team and I expect to see a lot from them next year (I sound like Marv Albert now); however, today is about my SPURS. Oh, yeah. I want to fly to LA tomorrow so badly. I do not see those cards in my future. Maybe when LA gets to SA I can go.

Great day....great memories....great team.

GO SPURS GO!

Things change

So much can change in a week! The Spurs are 2-2 with New Orleans now. Tonight is game 5. I am very anxious.

Soon summer will be here. This will be my son's first year in summer camp. In the past years he has been able to be at home and have very minimal childcare. It has always been my personal choice. This year he is growing up and needing the social interaction. He wants to go to a wilderness camp on the lake that offers archery classes. My mom instinct is kicking in big time. I have been lectured by all concerned parties...and by some that I don't want to hear from, too. "he is a boy", "let him be a boy", "he can't be a mommas boy forever"...blah, blah, blah.

Okay. So he is going to camp. Help me embrace this idea.

Perpetually a mother.

Spurs Mourning

Okay, so they are down 2-0 in the second round. I used to like New Orleans and now I am rethinking that. :(

I am hoping they will pull something out of their hat (or wherever they have their heads) and get it going. They go back home for game three and that will help. I don't want round three to be without my boys. And if Kobe wins MVP and a title this year I might jump off a high building.

Even the heavens are in mourning this morning...it is dark and dreary outside....rain falling like tears.....

I am pouting.

A Honky Tonk Weekend!

This weekend I went to a country concert. My niece and her best friend came in from San Antonio and had an extra ticket. I wasn't sure what to expect since I don't know any country song that has been recorded since about 1990. But, it was a lot of fun. There was a local band, Leann Rimes, Brooks and Dunn and Kenny Chesney. It was fun to be at a concert. I'll bet it has been ten years or more since I have been to any concert. Lots of photos, lots of fun.

C Y'all!

First Lady Laura Bush

My son was so excited to have a visit at school from First Lady Laura Bush and Jenna Bush. They read their new book, Read All About It. He got a signed copy. He has great stories to tell about secret service and they intense security at his school this week. What a great memory for him.

Shhhh....