A word to the Spurs

I love you and all....but we have to win Saturday. I have planned my schedule around the games this season. That includes a trip to a game in round three. You have to be there for that to happen. I don't want to go all that way to see the Phoenix Suns play. Timmy can't do it all on his own...so Manu, Tony, Finley....get it together and make me a happy fan.

And a word for Golden State, I would like round three to be in San Fran instead of Utah...it is much prettier there this time of the year, so if by some miracle you could make it happen, too...that would be beautiful.

Go Spurs Go!

Super Saturday!

I love Saturday. I sleep until 7 AM...and that is late in my world. I love the smell of Saturday. My son usually wakes me up by asking if he can watch cartoons. Of course he can. I make him breakfast then start getting ready. We always have something to do on a Saturday. Today is a birthday party for a schoolmate of his. Afterward we are meeting for lunch with some family who are in from San Antonio. This evening if the weather stays great I will stretch out on a lounge chair and watch him swim.

Tomorrow I have a crack-o-dawn flight. I am meeting my sister in Arizona for the day. We are going to watch our favorite NBA team play there. I am excited. I love NBA playoff time of the year.

Have a super Saturday.

The Void

There is an empty space.
It has been there longer than I.
I try to fill it
but it will not die.

I have given it many things
to go away and never come again.
But it never ceases to amaze me
how that empty space will win.

It takes away my power
and leaves me with such pain.
I promise to take care of it
as soon as I can sustain.

The horror of the truth
that left the empty space.
The real person living under there
that doesn't have a face.

Not Inspirational

Today I have no inspiring thoughts. I feel beat down. Sometimes I get into a funk and have a hard time pulling myself through. Sometimes I just plow through whatever life brings and I am okay. Today is one of the hard times. I am humbled by being human. I am human. I have to remind myself of that often. I try to inspire people so often that I forget to allow myself moments of pain, confussion and times without an answer. That is where I am today. I have some decisions to make that will be painful. I have some sadness that I need to deal with. I have been avoiding it long enough. So, big hug to me....I am ready to go.

The Truth Hurts!

I have been challenged by someone who cares about me to be a better person. I care so much about my emotional and spiritual well being. Today I was challenged to take better care of my physical self. I do an alright job, but not the best I can. I don't eat sugar, I avoid a lot of breads and drink plenty of water. But what about exercise? And what about the fact that I work far too much? I appreciate someone who can be honest with me about what they see. At least that is what I say in every lecture I give. It sometimes hurts...but I am going to pay attention....and will report back to myself soon on the action that I followed it up with.

FUN

1. A day without sunshine is like night.
2. On the other hand, you have different fingers.
3. 42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot.
4. 99 percent of lawyers give the rest a bad name.
5. Remember, half the people you know are below average.
6. He who laughs last, thinks slowest.
7. Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.
8. The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese from the trap.
9. Support bacteria. It's the only culture some people have.
10. A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

My Hair

So, I saw my stylist Friday. I got the same color and cut as last time. I am ready for something different. I don't know what I want but I want something drastic. When I am looking for big hair changes...like flames down the side of my head...big changes...I know something isn't right inside of me. I wonder what is going on that makes me think something real different will make me feel real different. It would be nice to stop thinking like a counselor for a few seconds.

How do you feel about that?

Alone

Have you ever just wanted to be alone? I am with people so much (and enjoy it a majority of the time). Yesterday I had an overwhelming desire to be alone and be quiet. I wanted to listen to that still, small voice inside that directs me. So I was. I am still listening. I am still here.

Alone.

That Pound

You know I hate that pound. It never matters if is gained or lost...but it controls me. I hate it. If I get on the scale and it is gone...wow! What a day. But if it is there...or gained....well, that sets the mood for my day, too. That stinking pound.

Paula

MAYA ANGELOU

EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... that her childhood may not have been perfect...but its over...EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW... what she would and wouldn't do for love or more... EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...

P.S. I am changing!

I feel driven today. I feel motivated and I am moving forward. I want to step away from the people in my life that hold me back. I don't want the negative force of those that lack motivation. Maybe this is my goodbye note to them. I need to break free of the boundaries in my own mind, but first I have to let the literal boundaries go. Negative, negative, negative....

Therapy

Therapy is great. I love it. I wonder why going to therapy is often met by resistance? So many folks seem to think something must be wrong with a person if they go to therapy. My secret? I think something is wrong with the ones who don't go! :)_

I know a wonderful therapist....he has a great website. Look at it at www.haroldduncan.com.

Great week.

Ready For The Week.

What a busy past seven days. I went and came back from DC. I went and came back from visiting my sisters. I also took my son to stay with his grandmother for a few days. Tomorrow will be a busy Monday at work.

My son got his first couple of NBA player signatures. I think he is hooked. He enjoyed every minute of it.

During some of my travel time I read the book, Running With Scissors. It caused me to be amazed that any of us ever recover. And the fact that those of us who make the needed changes are actually leaps and bounds ahead of "normal" society...well, it is truly amazing. We are so lucky. I am so lucky.

Happy Sunday.

My Week in DC

I am in Washington, DC this week with NAADAC.
I have heard that some people are natural advocates and some are not. I now disagree. I believe an advocate was inside of me all along but it caught fire while at this conference. I knew I was in this field to help those suffering from the disease of addiction, but learning what I can do for us to continue to provide those services has been eye opening.
When I used to look at small budgets, mini salaries and insurance red tape I used to think it was just going to be that way and I would just have to get used to it. NO MORE. I have a voice. WE HAVE A VOICE. It is time to speak!
I am on my way to the hill today to share my thoughts with those who represent us in Texas. What are you going to do today to ensure we are able to continue to provide services? Not everyone can come to DC. But, I challenge you to begin brain storming what you can do. If you have a passion for our profession.....get involved just a little more than you are today. If you don't attend TAAP meetings-Start. If you aren't a member-Become one. If you haven't been to Austin for legislative advocacy-Make plans today to go next year. If you want to stand beside me on the hill next year......let's talk!

It's the weekend!

Saturday night already. Tomorrow I leave for DC. Hope I get to see a friend of mine I haven't seen since moving back from Germany. But, the trip is mostly business so I am not sure.

Made it to two NBA games this week. Looking forward to the out of town game next weekend and doing some fun (not business) stuff for a few days.

Ciao.