Crabby

I have this theory. I am currently experiencing the reality of it so it is not just a theory in my world.

When you catch crabs from the ocean you can put them inside a cooler or a bucket but you don't have to put a lid on them. If one of them try to crawl out the others will pull them back down.

How often we do that to one another as human beings. I am continually surprised by folks in the counseling field who deal have the most moving groups, workshops and sessions. They often tell their clients to move forward, believe in themselves and keep dreaming of future goals. Some of them are the same counselors who want their peers and colleagues to stay stuck and not advance.

My dear friend Jennifer just told me that I might experience some of that as I move forward. Two days later....I am the crab trying to climb from the bucket and I can feel those pincher's at my heels.

Really crabby today.

Mid-Week

Today is the middle of the week and the middle of the month and the middle of my life. Dramatic? So am I.

I attended my first HIV Outreach workers conference in Austin this week. It was great. I am not sure what I expected but I really enjoyed it. It was a Mardi Gras theme. Tomorrow I go to the TAAP state conference in San Antonio. The TAAP conference is a "state fair" theme. That should be interesting.

I love conferences. I love training. I love learning. I love growing. But I don't know that I want to do all of them at once.

In transition.

I am, because I am.

Decisions, Decisions, Decisions!

I hate them sometimes. I wish someone would make them for me. I realized today how fear drives my inability to make some of them. It is funny how I can make decisions everyday and sometimes I let the small ones bog me down. Whew. I am crazy.

Nuts.

Cancer Update

My mom got a great report. There is much shrinkage of the tumors. They are going to keep watch over it, though. Apparently this kind of cancer comes back. Right now she is finished with chemo and radiation.

During our visit this weekend she got out all of her hats, scarves and wigs. My great neice is in this photo when she tried one on. She looks like a gypsy, don't you think?

Thank God for big miracles.

Real Sign

This is really a sign near where I live. There is a Hooter's that just bought and started remodeling next door to their current restaurant. Seriously funny.