The Void

There is an empty space.
It has been there longer than I.
I try to fill it
but it will not die.

I have given it many things
to go away and never come again.
But it never ceases to amaze me
how that empty space will win.

It takes away my power
and leaves me with such pain.
I promise to take care of it
as soon as I can sustain.

The horror of the truth
that left the empty space.
The real person living under there
that doesn't have a face.

Not Inspirational

Today I have no inspiring thoughts. I feel beat down. Sometimes I get into a funk and have a hard time pulling myself through. Sometimes I just plow through whatever life brings and I am okay. Today is one of the hard times. I am humbled by being human. I am human. I have to remind myself of that often. I try to inspire people so often that I forget to allow myself moments of pain, confussion and times without an answer. That is where I am today. I have some decisions to make that will be painful. I have some sadness that I need to deal with. I have been avoiding it long enough. So, big hug to me....I am ready to go.

The Truth Hurts!

I have been challenged by someone who cares about me to be a better person. I care so much about my emotional and spiritual well being. Today I was challenged to take better care of my physical self. I do an alright job, but not the best I can. I don't eat sugar, I avoid a lot of breads and drink plenty of water. But what about exercise? And what about the fact that I work far too much? I appreciate someone who can be honest with me about what they see. At least that is what I say in every lecture I give. It sometimes hurts...but I am going to pay attention....and will report back to myself soon on the action that I followed it up with.

FUN

1. A day without sunshine is like night.
2. On the other hand, you have different fingers.
3. 42.7 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot.
4. 99 percent of lawyers give the rest a bad name.
5. Remember, half the people you know are below average.
6. He who laughs last, thinks slowest.
7. Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.
8. The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese from the trap.
9. Support bacteria. It's the only culture some people have.
10. A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

My Hair

So, I saw my stylist Friday. I got the same color and cut as last time. I am ready for something different. I don't know what I want but I want something drastic. When I am looking for big hair changes...like flames down the side of my head...big changes...I know something isn't right inside of me. I wonder what is going on that makes me think something real different will make me feel real different. It would be nice to stop thinking like a counselor for a few seconds.

How do you feel about that?

Alone

Have you ever just wanted to be alone? I am with people so much (and enjoy it a majority of the time). Yesterday I had an overwhelming desire to be alone and be quiet. I wanted to listen to that still, small voice inside that directs me. So I was. I am still listening. I am still here.

Alone.